I grew out of my jeans today.

I have been wearing them for over two years, and somehow I still feel like I grew too fast.

I wore them when they tightened around my waist and thighs.

I wore them when they squeezed my calves and ankles.

And I wore them because I was in denial that I needed new jeans.

Some people would consider it funny, how others hate getting new jeans.

It is not the fact that I spend money on denim, but the fact that I grew.

My waist got bigger, and my thighs probably did too.

Which means while I have been avoiding the scale, I have gained weight.

No, it is not the denim.

Or the squirmy feeling in my stomach when I pluck size six jeans off the rack.

It is the feeling of the failure.

Like I have failed myself somehow.

All the days I only ate one meal or less.

All the days I tried.

All for nothing, because I grew out of my jeans today.

And I cried when I folded them away.

I know my little sister might never wear them because her thighs don’t touch.

And she doesn’t hate the scale.

So I will fold away my jeans that I grew out of today and perhaps never see them again.

Goodwill might have them in a few years, or make I will make so new DIY craft out of them.

But the fact is: I grew out of my jeans today. And I cried because that means I have somehow failed.

I don’t know why or how, but I do know that I feel like two years is not long enough for a pair of jeans.

2 thoughts on “

  1. Hannah says:

    Hey Girl,
    May i just say that i love you so much. I dont care if you ever get famous for your amazing writing(but really if you dont, you should) You are so relatable and funny and artsy. Happy Valentines Day.
    – Hannah ( from co-op ) 😉

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    • MW says:

      Howdy Chica, Thank you *tips imaginary hat*

      You pretty much just named my three main goals for writing: Being artsy, relatable, and of course, humorous!!
      Happy Valentines Day, Hannah!!! 🙂

      My little nine year-old-self made a goal to be a published author by sixteen. I’m not sure how that is going to work out yet, but we’ll see. 🙂

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